I ramble on...

Confessions of my hidden soul. I haven't been feeling as close as I have in the past to You. I am sure it's not because of one thing but many, including this whole situation I am in. Over and over I am trying to do it myself and find my own answers. My selfishness and lack of patience keeps me from really seeing what it is You are planning for me. But again You remind me how much I need You. You remind me of my inability to live on my own. Only when I am humbled and turn things over to you, have I really been given the things I ask for.
You told me to no longer have hope in what I can do but only in what You can and will do. Not hope in myself but hope in You living in me. Less of me, more of You. Isn't that how it goes? This is the only way for anyone to see anything real good in me and my life. Righteousness.
Not from me, but from You. Not from what I think I can make happen, but what I know you can make happen. Confession and repentance will be my treatment, the Bible my manual, and You, Father, my teacher, inspiration and hope.
I was born unrighteous with pride to be broken, selfishness to beat, patience and trust to learn. I confess it is impossible to stand well before You. I confess my attempts to treat unrighteousness have failed. No matter how many things I am able to list on my resume of good morality and religious acts, I can not ignore the fact that they do not excuse me from condemnation. I mean, how convenient is it that I have left all my wrong doings from that list? But You have known all this, You know my heart.
I have no hope in myself or my self righteous esteem. I have hope in something better...
I alone may not be well to stand before You, but I will stand before You one day. I will stand with you not alone but with the beautiful Son. The Son of God, who lives in me is my righteousness!!! He makes me well.
Instead of hopelessness in myself I have forgiveness, grace and love in Jesus.


I share this with you as something I struggle with everyday. Less of me and more of Jesus. We are all self righteous and wrong to think that by morality and being religious is going to excuse us from the punishment we deserve for our sinfull lives. Those things make us no more eligible for God's presence. The plain fact is that we need Jesus. There is no reason or hope to count on ourselves to be well and good before the eyes of God. We are unclean, and the only hope we have is for Jesus' righteousness to shine through us.
We will fail without Him. It's okay to accept the fact that we fail. And that is what I am learning more about. And even though we may fail, we are still picked up, loved and saved by Jesus. Don't be ashamed and don't be proud, but be humble and full of faith. We need Jesus. We need Jesus. We need Jesus....